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Post by lucas costello on Oct 19, 2011 3:39:08 GMT -5
hah, she would say something like that and think it would be okay to adopt you that way! nahh, i just did a lot of thinking for the first time in my life, ha. it was an experience, let me tell you. i'll be the first to agree that marriage is a bit scary and really never was on my mind before. idk, i guess if you love that person enough it becomes less scary just because you know they'll be with your through it all, thick and thin or whatever. but it's a big commitment.
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Post by neve alvaro on Oct 19, 2011 14:25:57 GMT -5
are you saying you love me that much, lucas? i guess i wouldn't be so terrified of marriage if i ever saw it work out. i don't know anyone who's married that's all together too happy besides your parents i guess. life is too complicated i guess.
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Post by lucas costello on Oct 19, 2011 15:13:42 GMT -5
well yeah. i mean, i'd like to think i would be able to marry you one day, neve. clearly this is something that isn't going to happen now, but in time i'd want to. that's if you would too. i know a few people other than my parents, even a younger couple, but marriage isn't for everyone too. it depends i guess.
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Post by neve alvaro on Oct 19, 2011 15:27:23 GMT -5
oh man you're going to make me cry again, lucas. when i was a little girl i always dreamed of a big white wedding even though i had never been to one. i saw pictures of my grandmother's wedding and she would let me try on her wedding dress when i was little. i think as i got older i just wrote it off as something that wouldn't happen because it seemed i was surrounded by marriages that had failed.
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Post by lucas costello on Oct 19, 2011 15:39:53 GMT -5
i hope there are pictures of that somewhere. i bet you were a cute kid, ha. i'm going to try and make your childhood dream come true though, babe. we've come this far already, i don't see why soon enough we could take another step when it feels right.
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Post by neve alvaro on Oct 19, 2011 15:46:09 GMT -5
i was kind of a tom boy at times. it was awkward being the middle child but also the only girl so of course i wanted to be just like the boys and i spent most of my time hanging around with them. i can't believe you've changed so much lucas.
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Post by lucas costello on Oct 19, 2011 21:27:33 GMT -5
it's what made you that tough type of girl i like. you don't take shit, and you voice your opinion. i told you i would. it was time to figure my shit out and find who and what was important in my life and what wasn't you know? and i started with you.
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Post by neve alvaro on Oct 19, 2011 22:26:06 GMT -5
i fucking missed you. i'm crying like an idiot over here ugghh so embarrassing.
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Post by lucas costello on Oct 20, 2011 3:29:54 GMT -5
i missed you too neve. it's kind of fucking embarrassing to admit, but when i got home all i ever talked about was you. ah, but don't cry.. i hate when you do that. especially when i'm not there to fix it.
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Post by neve alvaro on Oct 20, 2011 11:17:36 GMT -5
are you back in new york yet? you don't know how many times i wanted to follow you back to california. i was getting so lonely and well i just missed how easy it all was in cali.
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Post by lucas costello on Oct 20, 2011 17:48:22 GMT -5
my flight leaves out of LAX tomorrow morning, so i should be in new york by the late afternoon. you really should visit, or i could take you back eventually. yeah, things were a bit simpler or more relaxed but it’s not like we can’t have that here too.
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Post by neve alvaro on Oct 21, 2011 1:20:42 GMT -5
do you need someone to pick you up at the airport? i know i just get into this mindset that if i go back to california it will be like i never left.
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Post by lucas costello on Oct 21, 2011 3:42:22 GMT -5
actually yeah. do you think you could? a nice feeling that could be right? but not much has changed in los angeles. though our favorite restaurant could use us visiting one of these days.
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Post by neve alvaro on Oct 22, 2011 0:41:57 GMT -5
yeah, i can meet you there it's no big deal. i mean i still don't have a car but i can get a taxi and everything. ugh, i miss their food it was so fucking good and our waiter was always so perfect. i just feel like it's all changed even though i like to be in denial.
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Post by lucas costello on Oct 22, 2011 17:11:54 GMT -5
normally i wouldn't ask, but i'm only short on money for the next few days until i get paid again. it's a hard thing to not just take my parents dinero anymore, but it's better that way i think. we'll go back soon for sure. nah, i get you. but i think it's more that we've changed than anything.
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