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Post by ezio cortéz on Oct 20, 2011 0:07:50 GMT -5
i guess i'm the only one trying to be positive here. but if that's what is bothering you, why don't you come with me for some of the time? yeah, trueee. who knows.
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Post by vivenne dávila on Oct 20, 2011 0:11:18 GMT -5
do you really want me to? i mean, do you really think it's a good idea if i went with you to france? maybe i can visit you or something. we can go to disneyland. i'll miss you, i guess.
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Post by ezio cortéz on Oct 20, 2011 1:58:14 GMT -5
well yeah. i think it would solve some issues if you did. but i'll understand if that's like too much time, or you're uncomfortable and all that. i'll appreciate the visits instead. yeah? well i'll be pisssseedd if we get there and you end up wimping out over roller coasters. those are the only things i go on there! lol, i guess? i'll take it.
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Post by vivenne dávila on Oct 20, 2011 2:08:17 GMT -5
what do you mean? how would it solve anything? excuse you, someone doesn't realize that i'm a massive adrenaline junkie, goodness. GOOD.
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Post by ezio cortéz on Oct 20, 2011 2:45:58 GMT -5
it wouldn't solve everything. but maybe the distance issue i guess. or the fact that you think i'm not serious about how i feel. i don't know. it was just a thought. i mean, you say this, but i'll have to see it to believe it! you'd be hanging with me, i go extreme ~
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Post by vivenne dávila on Oct 20, 2011 2:54:39 GMT -5
or maybe it wouldn't solve anything at all since your best friend thinks i'm the biggest bitch in the universe as well as a massive slut. so i'm pretty sure he's only gathered this opinion via things you've said. so it's probably pretty fucking bad idea for me to come out there if you think so badly of me.
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Post by ezio cortéz on Oct 20, 2011 3:44:39 GMT -5
he hasn't been a fan of yours since the beginning, and it probably has to do with the fact that you wouldn't fuck him because you have standards. but funny that you assume that, because i actually haven't said one bad thing about you to him, viv. i had no idea he even knew what he did, until he pestered me about my mood concerning you and kings. he knew before i even told him. so fucking clearly, he learned all this information from you. you did it to your fucking self, how about that! keep trying to find ways that make you believe i hate you, if it makes you feel better, idc.
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Post by vivenne dávila on Oct 20, 2011 3:54:34 GMT -5
lol, funny, because why would i tell a boy i don't even like as a human being. i don't want to believe you hate me, but at the end of the day, even without kings being in the picture, nothing would ever work with us being you have a dickhead of a best friend that can't help but meddle in every little thing.
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Post by ezio cortéz on Oct 20, 2011 4:42:08 GMT -5
idk. in all honesty, in his weird way he's probably saying these fucking shitty things to defend me. it's what friends do. i don't get why him disliking you has anything to do with us. he can't tell me who to be with and you don't have to talk with him, or need his full approval. so again, what the fuck.
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Post by vivenne dávila on Oct 20, 2011 4:58:55 GMT -5
i really don't want to argue with you, z. i just want you to not be mad at me, and i want him to stop being a dick because i may not need his approval, but he makes it sound like these are things that you feel and you're just not voicing them to me. i'm sorry that i believe it, but i feel really shitty about everything right now and i'm really sorry things ended up the way they did, but it wasn't my intention. i didn't set out to hurt you and i didn't set out to lead you on or make you think i was just messing with your head. when i say i don't sleep around, i mean it. i've slept with five men, including you, in my entire life and all of them i had feelings for to some degree and all of them but one, i had hopes for something romantic at least fleetingly. i've never fully trusted you, and that's not your fault. that's totally my fault for not trusting you and assuming the worst, i get that, but i so still want to take a trip at some point to visit you. if you still want me to. however, as much as this pains me to say, perhaps you going away is a good thing. just to let things settle, at the very least.
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Post by ezio cortéz on Oct 20, 2011 17:53:54 GMT -5
i’ll talk to him. and i don’t hate you, alright? like i said before, i have a very small list of people i hate and yea, this shit right now sucks fucking a lot, but it’s not enough for me to hate you for it. ash means well, despite what you may think of him. but i don’t blame you for disliking him if he seems like an ass, just because he can be sometimes. he’s just.. a deeply confused boy, hah. thanks for that, but you don’t need to apologize anymore or keep saying that other stuff. i know you aren’t some whore. let's be real, my track record is beyond fucking ridiculous when i’m not in a relationship, i’ll admit to it. you’re clearly more classy. and i get that this isn’t the time for us and it might not ever be. which sucks you know, but that’s life right? i think this also has to do with my shit incapability to express anything serious in an uncomplicated manner. so i’m sorry too. i’m trying to work on it. as for the trusting bit, i kind of figured that out early. i don’t blame you completely, it’s not like you’ve known me for years. trust takes time. yeah sure, you can visit whenever you have time. that option will be open until i come back. nah i get you, and you’re probably right. clear our heads and all etc.
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Post by vivenne dávila on Oct 20, 2011 20:07:18 GMT -5
you're okay, though?
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Post by ezio cortéz on Oct 20, 2011 22:44:12 GMT -5
well now that you ask, i'm actually going to go cry about it all right this fucking second! nahh really. i'm fine. you don't have to worry about me, viv.
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Post by vivenne dávila on Oct 20, 2011 23:40:49 GMT -5
i'm not worried. i just, you know, want to make sure you don't embarrass yourself!
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Post by ezio cortéz on Oct 20, 2011 23:48:34 GMT -5
i'm pretty sure i already did though. plus, i think it's in me to do embarrassing stuff. i get over it fast though!
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