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Post by aurora stoltz on Apr 9, 2011 19:09:13 GMT -5
------- IT had been a long few weeks for bambi. she had spent atleast a few hours everyday crying and she just wasnt happy. her and jamie had been off at the time and that was hard for her. she had just wanted to talk to him and tell him what was going on, but she didnt. instead she talked to her brother. he didnt really help things either though, he just upset her even more. then to top everything off bambi found out she was pregnant. she had a feeling that she was but she never thought that she would actually be pregnant. she had been on the pill since she was like fifteen, but she was a forgetful girl. she knew that she had forgotten to take the pill a few times but getting pregnant was the last thing that she thought would happen. she never had even thought about what she would do if she got pregnant. she knew how much she loved jamie, but she was a horrible girlfriend. they were so off and on, which she knew was her fault, but that wasnt a relationship that she wanted to bring a baby into. she was so dysfunctional she just didnt know how she would be able to do it. she knew if she had decided to keep the baby that jamie would've been there for her and he would've done anything for her, but she still had her doubts.
------- WHEN she told her brother that she was pregnant she thought that maybe he would be able to help her. he would be able to help her talk to jamie or to their parents or something, but instead he told her he would take her to get an abortion and she would never tell jamie. they would be the only ones who knew that she had ever been pregnant. atfirst she hated the idea, she wanted to tell jamie, she didnt want to hide something so life changing from him. eventually though she had agreed to let simba take her to the doctor to get an abortion. they had fought about it for awhile though before she caved. she just wanted everything to be okay. she didnt want to fight with her brother, and she wanted to be able to commit herself to jamie forever. after walking out of the clinic that day with her brother though she knew that things would never be the same. she knew that she wouldnt be able to not ever tell jamie, but when she did tell him she knew that things would be bad. she regretted not talking to him about it, she regretted not telling him that she was pregnant and not telling him that she was getting an abortion, but she knew that she couldnt be a mother. not yet anyways.
------- BAMBI kept her secret for two weeks. it ate her away inside day by day though. she constantly thought about the little baby that wouldve been growing inside of her if she didnt get an abortion. the idea of telling jamie was always in her mind, she hated hiding it from him. she knew that he could tell something was wrong because she had been acting weird eversince they got back together, but she always just said that she didnt feel good. everything was fine though. she cried more and more each day, and she knew that she couldnt keep it in anymore. she had to tell jamie. they had been planning on spending the night together, they were going to go out and they were going to have fun but she knew that wasnt how the night would go. she was going to tell him when he came over, she had to tell him. she didnt bother to get dressed up or do anything fancy, she just pulled her hair up into a pony and put a black hoodie on over the cami she was wearing. she had a pair of skinny jeans on which she changed out of into a pair of sweat pants so that she was comfortable and she sat down on the couch. as she sat and waited for jamie she felt the tears start to role down her cheeks. "come in" she said softly through her tears when she heard a knock at the door.
notes, <3 them
words, dunno
music, none
clothing, she's a bumb c:.
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Post by kelly on Apr 10, 2011 15:00:36 GMT -5
 ------- THE voice on the other end of the phone line spoke in a drawl, slow and bored, as Jamie tried to reserve a dinner table for himself and Bambi for that evening. He’d given over his details and was just waiting for a confirmation, but found himself becoming increasingly frustrated with the student who was obviously already bored with their job. He sighed audibly down the phone line, to no avail, and listened for another minute as the boy rolled off his details, checking them all or whatever he claimed to be doing. Jamie uttered and irritated yes and was finally confirmed for his booking. He hung up quickly, without a thank you, and threw his phone down onto the sofa, running his hands down his cheeks. He tried his best not to get annoyed with people these days but seriously, some wound him up so easily. He breathed deeply to calm himself before making his way into his bedroom to change into his clothes for this evening. He wanted everything to be perfect this evening because it was the first one he and Bambi would be spending together since their last break up a few weeks back. He couldn’t really understand why he bothered anymore, when the brunette girl always seemed to leave every other month, but he was so in love with he was willing to look past that. Like they say, love is blind right? Jamie switched into some comfortable jeans and a shirt, buttoning it almost all the way to the top, leaving a part of his chest exposed so as not to get too hot. He drew a hand quickly through his hair in an attempt to make it neater, before grabbing all his essentials and leaving his apartment.
------- HE headed to Bambi’s quickly, his mind on their dinner reservation and movie night, a smile lifting his face as he thought about seeing her again. His hands were shoved in his pockets as the brisk air bit at his bare skin, the night drawing in and bringing with it a cold chill. He hurried his pace so as to keep himself warm, and also to make it to Bambi’s with enough time to spare so they could catch up before they went to dinner. Even though it had only been two weeks, Jamie could tell things had been up with Bambi that he didn’t know about. She had family issues, for one, including the impending visit from her parents, and she had seemed unwell when they had been talking. He was obviously concerned for her, which made him want to see her all the more. His fingers danced callously across his phone as he let his flat mate know where he would be for the evening, and he slid it back into his pocket just as he reached Bambi’s door. Gathering himself together, he curled one hand into a fist and knocked softly, waiting for an answer.
------- AN answer which came in the form of the very softly spoken, hardly audible words ‘come in.’ His brow furrowing at the soft, shaky voice on the other side of the door, Jamie tentatively pushed the door open and glanced around the room, his eyes landing on his girlfriend in the middle, her eyes glistening in the light and tear tracks staining her cheeks. Immediately he closed the door and made his way over to her, his eyes appraising her and seeing her sweat pants and hoodie attire. He sat down next to her on the couch, his eyes full of concern for his dysfunctional girlfriend. ”Bambi, what’s wrong?” He asked quietly, reaching a hand over to brush away the tears dripping from her cheeks. ”Has something happened I should know about?” he asked, immediately thinking the worst about her family or her friends. ”Should I cancel our dinner reservation?” he joked weakly, trying somehow to lighten the mood. Surely, whatever had happened couldn’t be too bad, or else he’d already know about it by now.
notes, so whack, my bad.
words, wordsss
music, katy perry
clothing, described.
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Post by aurora stoltz on Apr 10, 2011 20:38:15 GMT -5
------- BAMBI had always been the independent one out of her siblings. she did everything on her own and she didnt want anyone else to take care of her or worry about her. she just wanted to worry about herself by herself. she liked not having people question the things she did or always checking up on her. sure her parents helped her alittle bit, but she did alot of things on her own. it was just the way she always had been. even when she was little, she never asked for help and she hated when people treated her like she was a child. she taught herself how to ride bike and how to tie her shoes. she didnt need anyone's help. she payed for her own apartment and just did everything for herself. she was happy just the way she was. giving in and asking someone for help was the hardest thing for bambi to do. but then she met jamie, and he was a person she started to rely on. she fell for him and it scared her. she knew it was horrible, but when things go to good she would leave. she hated the idea of putting all of her trust on him, and having someone to take care of her. but she wanted things to change. she wanted to be with jamie forever. it was just the matter of changing herself for him, she needed to change so she didnt hurt him again.
------- SHE shut her eyes hard when she saw the door start to open. all the tears that were forming in her eyes fell then. she opened her eyes again when she heard the door close. she smiled softly at seeing him. she had missed him so much. he was everything to her and she was just now realizing that. he was the person she wanted to be with together, but she knew that the news she might tell him now could end their relationship for good and he could hate her more than anything. she bit her bottom lip as he sat down next to her. "yeah.. you should cancel it." she said and then leaned forward and buried her head in his chest. she didnt know how she was going to tell him. she didnt know if she could just come out and say it. she was preparing herself for the worst though. "im afraid your going to hate me jamie. im afraid your not gonna want to talk to me or look at me or even be in my presence anymore." she said and looked up at him. she leaned forward and kissed him as if it was the last kiss that she would ever get from him. "i wont blame you though, i would hate me to. ive hurt you so much and im so sorry. i wish i could change everything, i dont ever want to hurt you again but i know this will. she was rambling now, but she didnt want to tell him her secret yet. she wanted to keep it in for as long as she could. she leaned back against the ouch and pulled her knees up to her chest now. her eyes moved from looking at jamie to down to the floor. she was ashamed of the words that were going to come out of her mouth next. "i was pregnant, but i got an abortion." she said softly and then the tears started rolling down even more, her make up spreading and her heart getting ready to break.
notes, <3 them
words, dunno
music, none
clothing, she's a bumb c:.
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