Post by shel on Jun 10, 2011 19:37:34 GMT -5
[/i]shel, charlotte free, resident
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[/i] hudson rafferty.name,
age, [/i] eighteen
high school, [/i] left high school at age sixteen
who were you in high school? average & nonchalant
college & major, [/i] N/A
marital status, [/i] single
kids, [/i] N/A
job, [/i] coffee shop
position, low
how long you’ve had the job, one year
are you happy, yes
what is your salary, $8.64/hr
what kind of things do you spend money on, smokes, t-shirts, fish food, coffee & hair cuts (that are alternated afterward)
what’s your typical day like, [/i]
i wake up at 6:45 and shower for two hours. i mean, i say shower, but rather i just sit at the bottom of the shower and go back to sleep. it's tough, i have work at nine-six most days and when i'm not working i'm compulsively tidying my box. you see, i live in this deadbeat hostel that is crawling with all the scum of the earth. like your average joe druggies, alcoholics and wife beaters, for instance. they're allowed to roam free and have no strict curfews or rules implemented. it's not so great. but i guess it's still my own place in a sense, so i have that freedom. obviously when i'm not doing that i go to work, i shut up, do as i'm told and deal with the wankers who only come for coffee because they know what the question of the day's answer is, or they have coupons.
what life dreams did you have in high-school, have you accomplished them, [/i]
i had a dream that i would have a baby by the time i was nineteen, and would have moved out. i accomplished one of those things two years ago, which was moving out, but i'm still waiting on the baby. it's not even that i want that whole perfect family semblance routine, just the baby. for some reason every time i try and get away with not using a condom, the boy get freaked out and protest against it. i must look like i literally have contracted some vile diseases, hence the hesitation. or maybe my reputation for sperm snatcher proceeds me. i'll never know.
what is a significant change within the past five years, [/i]
i refused to go to school anymore because i had girls harassing me in the corridors, and i didn't want to stick up for myself. one girl in particular made me life hell, she literally asphyxiated me and that was that. i was left in the hospital, and then eventually left school. soon after i became obsessed with being anybody but myself, so i cut my long white blonde hair to mid-length with some scissors that had glue on them. i looked like a fringed row of dolls that my sister makes, ridiculous. but i liked it, so i slapped some pink hair dye on the ends which are now a baby pink and that's it. soon after my parents kicked me out because they thought i had become too westernized and they 'didn't like the changes'.so, i lived rough for a few weeks, literally scrounging from bins and soup kitchens until a guy i knew on cocaine told me about my hostel.
are you the same person you were five years ago, [/i]
no, i've toughened up a bit now but i'm still really sensitive and scared when it's comes to groups of girls. i dress in baggy clothes and hide my figure and i hardly look that many people in the eye when i'm on the street. however, when i'm in my room i geek out and have fun, who doesn't? it's just girls as a subculture, i'm a misogynistic woman basically.
if you could go back and change one thing what would it be, [/i]
i would change not resisting enough when my parents threw me out. i was the oldest, aside from my brother who refused to move from russia. he was able to stay, but i wasn't. i feel like i've missed out on juni and lie's lives majorly, and i beat myself up about it regularly as they were my comfort blanket so to speak. juniper and ottilie are my baby sisters, i say 'baby' but they're both fourteen and are practically young women now, i guess. i just totally feel like i've fucked our relationships up, they ottilie doesn't talk to me, or about me, or even acknowledge me, but juniper cries at my name. which is a shock, because she's fourteen and still does it. i don't know, it's just difficult i guess to have that bond broken by fucking ridiculous pink hair, which i feel obligated to keep because of all the trouble it's caused me.
what is one thing you feel has remained the same, [/i]
what is your biggest achievement, [/i]
and your biggest mistake, [/i]
finally, what is your fondest life memory thus far,[/i] [/blockquote][/blockquote][/sub][/font]