Post by brooklyn on Jun 20, 2011 23:13:31 GMT -5
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[/i] brooklyn tamera mayfield.full name,
nicknames, [/i] brooke is the obvious!
birthday, [/i] june 17th 1991.
hometown, [/i] austin, texas.
--- my mother/father thinks i am...[/i][/color]
brooklyn has always been a mistake and honestly an utter disappointment. she was a whiny needy baby who kept me up every night and never left me to a minute of rest. this continued into her adult hood. i make sure she knows her place, though. brooklyn is my daughter, the only attachment we have is biologically. she's never done anything for me besides be a great money pitt: investing hundreds of dollars into costumes, lessons, make up for her pageants and every single time, no grand princess supreme. harley was no grand prize but atleast she acts better than brooke- in fact, the only thing my daughter has going for her is the fact that she has her drivers licence and can take me to and from work. also, she's overweight and eats too much and that's so not pretty. her shit boyfriend has convinced me to put her into "treatment" for her "eating disorder" a few times, but she just wants attention and the at the end of the day i think he should be happy she's eating a little less. she could cut down a few pounds atleast.
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ms. mayfield was with a doubt one of the most disruptive students that i've ever had, which was surprising because her behavior was something i would expect of the young men her age rather than she, a fresh pretty blonde. i must have given her a half a dozen suspensions throughout the years and more detentions than that, but there wasn't much that i could do! i spent so much time with the girl that i generally got to know one of the many reasons for her outbursts: an undying perfectionist, she became often, overly frustrated with her school work and lashed out at teachers and students for a variety of reasons; they were being too loud, teaching the lesson wrong, or just because she'd had a bad day- and it was just as often with her fists as it was with her unruly, sour language. she was also the butt of a lot of jokes about her lifestyle, and after she got pregnant everything just went down with her. however, i can't help but feel that it was a self fulfilling prophecy. if you always doubt yourself, it leaves little room to achieve greatness. there are thousands of other kids like her.
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brook is a raging good time, let me tell you. i haven't seen the girl in ages, but man did we have some good times. she never really got along with other people though, i guess they didn't get her sense of humor or thought she was sort of scary/unpredictable, but she mellowed out towards the end there. but really, we used to do so much crazy shit; sneak into old apartment complex pools and party, abandoned mines to do the same thing. the worst thing ever was when we took shrooms and then went to the mall during christmas shopping season; it was the worst ever. she used to be my girl, but i guess we just grew apart once she got pregnant which isn't because she got boring or anything- just because i have morals, you know. i couldn't keep standing by and watching her be such a shit mother- she's seriously so fucked up most of the time she can't even take care of herself yet alone colette.
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jesus christ, dating brooklyn was like being on some trashy television show. don't get me wrong, the girl was hot and a great time but her mother was such a fucking bitch, i never wanted to go over her house. it's no wonder why she has the self-esteem that she goes with that wench constantly riding her back. but she was a relatively good girl, a little too affectionate but she meant well and was sweet to my parents which i always found sort of funny because they'd totally freak out if they had any idea about what s he was really like. i started hearing some weird rumors about her though, like she was sleeping with dudes for money which i mean- yeah, it's a shitty thing to do but to be honest i was more concerned with my reputation and it getting back to my family than i really was heartbroken about the entire thing. i sort of felt bad for her really, if you're so addicted to drugs that you have to stoop that low just to get high- it's a sad thing.
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i know it doesn't seem like it but i really do try. dominic tells me that there's something wrong with me, that i'm unbalanced or bipolar or something and i don't know, he could be right but please don't think that i don't try. and not even just with like, getting clean and stuff, just with the little things. i try to tolerate people and i try not to beat bitches up, and i try to be a good mother but sometimes it's just too fucking hard and i don't even want any of it all. it's honestly just too much trouble to try and strap on a smile and actually put in effort and live that june cleaver lifestyle. i'd honestly just rather lay in bed all day than deal with the bullshit, and if there's something wrong with that then whatever. hate me.
all in all, i am... [/i] easy-going , affectionate , spirited , unstable , disheartened. [/blockquote][/blockquote][/sub][/font]