. confessions

[freya soloman]

_{o1. I constantly feel like I have to please someone; whether it's my mom or a friend.. I don't really know why, but everything I do I feel like I need approval. I think it's because I can't take knowing I'm not good enough.
o2. I take my anger out on those I love most.
o3. I am terrified of the future. Whether its my future or the future of everyone on this planet. You can never predict what will happen and the thought of that really scares me. If you look at pictures of your grandparents when they were smaller and think that they had no idea of what was going to happen to them on their future years, its exactly the same with us.
o4. I used to take my brother Eamon's alcohol, drink most of it, and fill the rest with water. He blamed it on my other brother, I never fessed up.
o5. I spent my last semester in high school fucking my anthropology teacher. After I graduated we dated publicly for two weeks, I think the pressure got to both of us.. it was only a seven year age difference.
o6. I hate pda.. can't stand seeing it, doing it, I feel like the rudest person when I'm sucking face in the subway.
o7. When Cole and I were married, he bought Cheerios, and I ate them. I guess he figured I liked them because I did, so he kept buying them. Cheerios.. tasteless, carby, little rings, and I fucking hate them.}