Post by kieronsomhairle on Aug 9, 2011 21:01:13 GMT -5
[/i]hannah, chris evans, resident
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[/i] kieron magnus somhairle.full name,
nicknames, [/i] kier & kie.
birthday, [/i] 04/11/82.
hometown, [/i] glen falls, new york/united states.
--- my father thinks i am...[/i][/color]
"kieron is...well we don't have the best relationship. i think he blames me for his mother's illness or maybe the fact that we didn't tell him right away but he was overseas fighting and i didn't...i didn't want to burden him with information that might take away his focus. in the past our relationship was a sound one and i know that he only wanted to make me proud of him and maybe that's why he joined the marines straight out of high school. i myself served once upon a time and i tried to dissuade him from following the same path but i could see that he was lost in life and past run-ins with the cops had set him to thinking about how to change his ways. it was an even bigger shock when his younger brother felix decided to follow suit and join up as well. their mother cried for four days straight after they both came home from signing their lives away, i felt a mixture of pride and fear for my children. i love my boy even if he can't bring himself to speak to me, i know felix is trying to convince him to let go of his anger but that's a hard thing for someone wound as tight as kieron. lately felix has been telling me he's worried his brother came back from Iraq with some problems that he's been hiding from the rest of us."
--- at school they always used to say...[/i][/color]
"kieron's writing has revealed him to be a gifted young man but he hides behind his athleticism and prefers to go with the crowd. his focus of late seems to wander more frequently and he has been showing more rebellious behavior but whether that has anything to do with his younger brother's recent run-ins with the law or his own i am not entirely sure. i recently tried to reach out to him after class but he brushed me off and assured me that everything was fine. when i praised him on his very insightful piece about wartime and its effects on the family and soldier's psyche he was very embarrassed and asked me to not to publicly recognize him like that again. my opinion of this particular student is that he is merely a victim of the high school environment and is torn between excelling in his studies and excelling in his social circles."
--- my best friend claims i'm...[/i][/color]
"i was with kieron in Iraq and let me tell you, he was the heart and soul of the unit. he led all of us out of a bad situation when our c.o. was gunned down and he went back to get their bodies out of that fucking hellhole. he kept it together when we were falling apart and his courage and dedication to his brothers should be an example to every man and every soldier. when my girl left me and i was going through hell back home he came when i called him one drunken night about ready to obliterate myself. he has never once not come through for me or anyone else. he always keeps his promises once he makes them and if you're ever in a hot situation he's the one i would want to have my back."
--- my ex is biased, but...[/i][/color]
"he was always very sweet, if he liked you he alternated between suave and shockingly shy. never really good at expressing his feelings and he could definitely keep a secret--even though all the guys on the football team probably bothered him about details of our relationship he was very tight-lipped. definitely not your typical jock. and he noticed things about me and what i liked, he paid attention to the small details and i think that was what i liked the most. his attention to detail and his ability to have a good time while still looking out for everyone. i thought we didn't have any secrets until one day he told me he'd be leaving for boot camp and wouldn't see me for a couple of months and that it was best if we didn't see each other anymore. broke my heart. i still wonder about him." -- high school sweetheart
"the man is like the wall of china. impregnable. halfway through our relationship he started behaving strangely, and the nightmares were insane and when i suggest help...i think that's what did our relationship in. i assumed that maybe it had something to do with some case at the precinct. he stopped talking to me and shut me out completely and one day he stopped by my apartment and said we shouldn't see each other anymore. said that he wasn't in a good place and that he didn't want to drag me down with him. i hope he's still doing okay..." -- recent ex
--- i've always thought of myself as...[/i][/color]
"conflicted. i know that i put on the image of being the all-american boy because people tell me that's what they see when they look at me. i used to think that people's opinions of me were the most important and because of that i let friendships suffer with the less popular groups of kids that had been with me since kindergarten. i was embarrassed by my English teacher's compliments and told her not to do it again because my friends made fun of me for being a brain. my younger brother always looked up to me and i felt so responsible for him and everything he did and the guilt over what happened when we were younger...we were playing out at our grandma's house and he fell into a well. i screamed for hours until someone found us and they told me it wasn't my fault but i didn't believe them. since that day felix has had an unhealthy obsession with fire and that obsession has gotten him into a lot of trouble. when i signed up with the marines i told felix i needed direction, that i wanted to do something good with my life. he signed up too, said he'd follow me anywhere. no pressure right?
after i got back from iraq i was not the same person. the shit that happened over there wouldn't leave me alone and i was fucking haunted by the horrors i had witnessed over there. one night i woke up to felix screaming at me and i was in my yard in my boxers digging a fucking foxhole with a Glock tucked in my waistband and that's when i knew something was wrong. i haven't said anything to the guys at the precinct and i made felix promise me that he wouldn't say a fucking word. that i would get help but i haven't. i can't bring myself to do it. i can't talk about it. i'm scared to go to sleep, i'm scared to talk about it. i am not a good person, i'm not mr. all-american. i'm a coward and a fake."
all in all, i am... [/i] "i'm confused, i'm scared, i always want to do the right thing. i am someone that needs help, i want someone to save me, i am lost in a life that is spinning out of my control. i used to be a better person."[/blockquote][/blockquote][/sub][/font]